go mushing
swim and play with dolphins
swim with sharks. i dont think i can play with them. haha.
London, Paris, Africa, New Zealand, Hawaii, Alaska, Switzerland ETC
surf!
underoath concert
and although i’ve a fear of heights, i wanna try hang gliding
sing and drum at the same time just like Aaron Gillespie
every once in a while, you get a breather.
every once in a while, you take a breather.
every once in a while, you lose a breather.
superiors should know what is appropriate behaviour and what is immoral. if you see yourself losing the respect of your subordinates, you of all peoples should know what went wrong. punish yourself and fix it now.
stop spoiling your kids, or theyll grow up to love your giving, not you. kids need beating. make them cry and throw them into danger. only then will they know how sensitive yet tough they need to be.
gossip kills friendship. dont be a coward. if you have a problem with someone, face them and get it over with.
if you know you’ve work to do and youre procrastinating, you’ll also know that you’ve to work even harder very soon.
group members arent really group members if they do not contribute to work. if you have a conscience you’ll take the initiative instead of being spoonfed by your worn out fellow members.
there’s no solution to jealousy, but you can always work harder to get what you want. dont forget its a sin to be envious.
every single short paragraph is a part of what ive been thinking about lately. some of these are directed to myself, others, others. haha. most of these things are sensitive so i shall not disclose. (:
i thought i’d be quicker than this. well at least you’re alright with. (:
reminiscing. NDFI to NCS and back to NDFI again. i’ve gone through so much, seen so much, learnt so much, and without this transition i would’ve never got all these insights, all these experiences and skill God has blessed me with now. not saying that im a friggin guru but ive learnt much more than what i would have if i just stayed put. looking back, i realised i sacrificed so many friendships, so much time, and so much energy and commitment. but i also realised that ive gained more than what ive lost. though i wouldve changed many things if i were given the chance to. i wouldve maintained and built on friendships instead of shunning company. losing friends is worse than losing time or energy. especially when you know that now, you cant find anyone else to replace them.
in retrospect, NCS youths were much more accommodating, clingy and affable as compared to my present company. i miss having big brothers to talk to and pray with, and little sisters and brothers to take care of and grow with. i miss having bbqs, birthday chalets, outings to beaches, suppers at midnight, basketball in the early morning and late at night in the heavy rain, soccer in mud, kite flying, dog and bone, self organised youth camps, youth services, the company before mannalife and the sending the youths off after that, the staying at church til late to discuss and pray with my worship team about the songs to lead for youth camps, the staying over at one of the guys’ homes and exploding their playstations and throwing chairs into the swimming pool.
NDFI youths are in complete contrast. i wont say i have anything bad to say cos they arent really bad things, but i wont say what im thinking anyway to avoid any misunderstandings and much unneeded reproaches. but i’ll say that i dont have the company i used to have, and im usually indifferent partly because of that. whatever i’m thinking about, i cant find anyone to talk to, not that they arent welcoming or pleasant (they are very much so), but hmm how to put this. its like a smelly jellyfish talking to a bunch of 40cent agar agar you know. haha okay bad analogy. but i think you get the point. anyway, i love NDFI and the people in it. i just wish it had more to offer me, in terms of camaraderie.
i’m more indifferent, more uninspired, more weary.
if only you knew how much…
wait. maybe you do.
i’d rather risk getting hurt than never have a chance to be with you at all.
weekend come. two options: cram all your shit and get it over with quick or procrastinate. my response: cram some of my shit and procrastinate the rest of the shit. (:
i’ve been doing schoolwork during the wee hours and during the times when you’re supposed to be drooling over your stinky pillow. this is so that i can have time to do wacky stuff like this
and this…
(haha i took damn long to get into the mood this)
today was awesome. (:
xindi is so violent.
whats the occasion you ask? it was haris’ birthday you dumbass. ( sorry for exposing it haris, but people will know sooner or later so hoho too bad (: )
we surprised haris in the morning, went to marina barrage to picnic, frisbee, and do lots of silly things, and went to have dinner together before we all rushed home to do our cellbio flowcharts and reminisce. haha.
Content Whatever the Circumstances
I’m glad in God, far happier than you would ever guess—happy that you’re again showing such strong concern for me. Not that you ever quit praying and thinking about me. You just had no chance to show it. Actually, I don’t have a sense of needing anything personally. I’ve learned by now to be quite content whatever my circumstances. I’m just as happy with little as with much, with much as with little. I’ve found the recipe for being happy whether full or hungry, hands full or hands empty. Whatever I have, wherever I am, I can make it through anything in the One who makes me who I am. I don’t mean that your help didn’t mean a lot to me—it did. It was a beautiful thing that you came alongside me in my troubles.
Philippians 4:10-14 (The Message)
communication skills presentation rehearsal tomorrow in the morning. slides just done, script just roughly memorized.
project 1 group presentation on thursday. slides not done, not compiled, not edited, some havent even started. survey not done, dont plan on having a script.
people complaining theyve so much to do when everybody’s workload is the same. why this why that. weak, childish and pathetic. stress also wont die. in fact, if you want success, you need stress, so thank it. haha.
barely done with pain.
i’m beat.
headache.
i’ve only this much time with her.
know what to do when you’re wrecked, overloaded with work, and missing somebody? have a chat with God.
quiet time now. (:
life has been rushing fast. time to pause, take in your surroundings, and think.
for now i’m going to take you through a magical tour around my humble abide.
my once bare and dusty desk is now cluttered with all kinds of school shit. but dont judge me. all my notes and books are stacked according to modules, and arranged chronologically. the octopus and his friends the gatsby moving rubber hair wax (which sucks), the squeezy thingy to train your forearms thingy and my new pair of drumsticks, are my paper weights.
this is my to-do list, which never seems to ever be cleared. that reminds me, ive alot of stuff to do! and im procrastinating, as usual.
this cute lil dude is my doggy which is named doggy and he sleeps beside me every night and guards my hairband. and he’s not really doing a good job because my mum still moves it here and there.
the message bible is fantastic. i would strongly recommend this tome of awesome-ness to any young Christian. for old fellas, you could try this out if you want to be more ‘contemporary’ and ‘up-to-date’. great for songwriting.
C#m inversion. my guitar was my sixteenth year birthday present and i love every sycamore grain of it.
my collection of picks. out of the 13 of them i only use 5 of them. the rest are just for fun. my oldest one is the beigish colour nylon one at the most bottom, which has been with me for 5 years. i started learning the guitar on my own at p6, and everyday after school i would spend 2 hours all alone at home, getting my fingers hurt til i could get a C chord right.
my lyrics and chords. most of my leadsheets from NCS mannalife and service are still in there. the guidelines and regulations for NCS worship ministry are still at the front of my A to D list. about 30% of them are handwritten ones because we didnt have a printer back then.
my mum made this for me. its right smack in front of my face when im studying. yup, im a selfish guy, but God is changing me.
hoho. this are my all-multipurpose screwdrivers. i use them for everything. from fixing my mum’s furniture to my tightening little brother’s spectacles. even digging my ears. (:
underoath! 3 whole albums of screaming, death metal and amazing christian lyrics.
my 3 pairs of drumsticks. the one that should look familiar to you is the one at the bottom, because it is used as a paperweight for my notes which i already told you about. the middle pair is a secondhand pair i bought from my secondary school friend who was a drummer in the military band. i bought it for 7 bucks i think. the last pair was a gift from a thoughtful youth leader.
my most frequently used lotions/creams/whatever. oxy10 is super powerful and i use it when i have an emergency breakout. voren is a joint/muscle relieving cream and its damn cooling. i used to use it every week for my extra bone in my right foot, and it definitely works.
damn. bought this from cash converters for 18 bucks. 2+2+2+2+1+1 kg. interchangeable weights. 10 more you weakling, 10 more!
these are my daily needs. in fact, i’m wearing one now typing this. im only wearing one now typing this. the only time that i shouldnt be wearing a boxer is when im excreting my toxins, bathing, and swimming. briefs are so dorky! haha. and uncomfortable too.
and… i dont know what the hell this is.
